Hmm...

23th september:
well, today i had history paper and art paper....well...finish my art paper earlier...hmm...this few days, i've been thinking a lot...abt my life, my walk with God...every single day, i yearn to have an even stronger relationship with God, with ppl....God is always so near to my heart.....Lord, u know how i'm feeling right now...hmm....well, today, everything goes on smoothly and right now, i'm tired..maybe i will go and sleep later after i've finish practicing the guitar and worshipping God....how i yearn for Him....today, i saw Shi Min before the art paper...remembered that she is drawing her great grandma for her art...she choose the topic cold...then i remembered great grandma...remembered my grandma....why do i think so much abt her this few days? esp great grandma.....i knw grandma is weak, bt don't know how is her situation now...don't even know the situation that aunty doris is right now..grandma is staying at her there...kranji is so far away....don't dare to ask mum abt it...don't want her to know....this is the first time that i actually miss my grandma and great grandma...coz during the wake of great grandma, i didn't cry...thought i saw her though....hmm...that was 7 yrs ago..bt why am i remembering everything nw? remembering the different times that i spend with her at her house during new year and such...juz like the song says, love lingers on in my heart....for all those that are reading, plz don't tell mum and sis abt it...if you know them....wats the point of telling them? there is nothing they can do...or should i say all my prob i didn't tell them...coz mum is always so busy, if i tell my dad he will sometimes say go away...or he wouldn't even pay attention at all...tell my sis? she can't even handle her own prob...even my mum say that she don't really have to worry for me...she worry more for my sis....oo...dear blog, wat should i do? really miss her a lot...though she dont even know who i am....i believe that God is actually making me realise something from this and learn from it...bt i don't know what is it...no eyes have seen, no ears have heard, wat God has installed for me....hmm..well, i'll stop here for now...want to go and worship God...and be in His presence...