Another day has passed....

5th Oct:
well, today, in the morning, i had 4 periods of english again...bt 2day, i'm in group 2, in Ms Tay group..well, today the lessons seems quite alright except that she kept have to scold the other ppl from 4E4...haha...well, 2 hrs seems to pass so slowly...hhaa....then it come a time where she asked if we knw wat is irony...then one guy said yes and i said yes...haha...i don't knw that she heard it though..haa...the guy from 4E4 when asked he said "i don't know, bt i knw wat it mean"...haha....after which everybody was like..haha...then at last, this example was used...rather than him explaining, it is wat he did that allow others to use it to explain..wat an irony...haha...bt before that, Ms Tay asked me...guess wat i said...though i really understand, i said "when you are good at something bt that you did badly in it"...haha...wat rubbish i'm saying..bt well, i juz want to thank God for the strength that i'm able to stay awake and nt feel tired this whole day...well, today, we are supposed to clean the class and no one informed us...so well, from 12.40pm to 1.30pm, we are juz cleaning up...was supposed to release early bt no, coz of it, we had to stay back..before the cleaning, we knw all our results...or L1R4 and L1R5....well, i'm so upset by it...did all the best that i could, study all the best that i could, and well, my L1R4 i got 22 and L1R5 i got 30...where can i go? i failed my maths....where can i go? i dont want to go to ITE, and i really long to go to the Poly...to the course that i really like...bt well, i'm left with 3 wks...will i be able to work a miracle in these 3 wks? bt well, i still put my trust in Him, and seek His Kingdom first...for seek first the Kingdom of God and all things shall be added to you and blessed are those who put their trust in Him...ooo...God, my future is in Your hands...i trust in You...though i'm a bit discouraged, bt well, i believe i can and i belive that God believe in me...so many ppl is looking forward to me doing well for my o level, to get less than 15 for my L1R5, which is even above wat i've planned...am i really that good? why do ppl look forward or set this goal for me? when in fact, my results doesn't show? i'm afraid that the ppl that really look forward to this will in fact be disappointed...haiz...bt well, don't give up....i can do it...Phil 4:13....sure can one...:p...
Countdown to saturday:
4 more days
Dear blog, plz help me...i'm still deciding on something that i think is quite important....coz on saturday, after service, mum say that i and sis must go to my uncle's birthday at Kranji...and well, it is like those kind again..where ppl go there and cook and like a dinner like that..haiz...don't really like it though...though it is good food...got all kinds of ppl that i will see...haiz...bt though i really wanted to see how grandma is right now, though i heard from mum that she is extremely weak and can't really move now, bt i really don't knw wat to do..to go or not to go...firstly, if i go, i can at least find out how she is and together with uncle freddie, we can pray for her, at the same time pray for aunty...think that her health is nt good too...and that she wants to accept Christ and that she does not knw wat to do with the idols at home...how? wat to do? bt if i go, i wouldn't want to see uncle tony..he will ask how come i nv wear skirt again..though that day i wore formal....haiz...then my first aunty daughter will ask me how is my prelim results and then say how good my niece were though they are in sec 3 coz they are in special and some in express...and that if other aunty and uncle heard that, they might think that wat i disgrace it is for me as their aunty to lose to them as niece, which is suppose to be the other way round...o well, wat to do? bt sis say that if we go, we can reach out...coz she say that lots of time we didn't go for family stuff coz of the time that we go for service, cg and stuff...and that by going, we can show their parents that they will nt severe ties with family though they go to church..wat to do? Ooo..God, plz help me...so many things i must handle..and that my cousins which is first aunty daughter, will start to say and say and say..and i can't stand ppl gossiping...haiz..wat to do? if i go, i can reach out to sean, samuel...and if cousin is there, as he like me a lot, he might give me something in his room, haha...as he is getting married, i think he is going to move out soon..hehe....haha...well, this few days i will really consider it first....going to go and practice the guitar now...very tired....need some rest....