BaCk FrOm ThE bUsYnEsS oF tHiS wOrLD!

Dear blog, do you miss me? well, i do...haha...being longing to update you for a very long time liao...well, i juz came back and here i am, updating you asap...haha....hmm....ive been thinking a lot a lot this few days while i'm away from you...hmm...no longer do i have a diary to write to, to pen down all my thoughts...so well, i pray that someone would buy for me a notebook to be used and decorate as my diary.....hmm....well, this few days, i've been so busy with my art that i neglect so many things.....i neglect my other subjects, my friends, my family...and you too.....haha....well, juz now on my way home, i've this thought that came into my mind....that well, was thinking abt God's love for me and for the world...then it came to my mind that well, if i'm without God, who would i be? to the world out there, to the dog-eat-dog world, i'm juz a grass....a wild grass...no one really care abt this grass or anything abt me, even if you would to pay them money to look after me or even look at me for a few min.....bt it is different now....no longer do i even bother abt wat others look at me....for i know that the God that created me love me for who i am, that His love for me is so great that He sent His only Begotten Son, to die on the cross for me....no one in the world would do the same for me, and i knw that His love is eternal...there is no other love that i desire as much as His love for me.....Praise to Him forever and ever...hehe....well, this few days, without God's strength and grace, i would have not survived the time that i spent in art...i would have landed in hospital like how it is last time when i couldn't survived the basketball practice that i juz burned out...Praise be to God....well, this few days, as i've doing my art, i look at other ppl work too....one work that impressed me the most is Shi Min's art....not that it is really nicer than the rest, bt well, it is that her art remind me of how much she really miss her great grandma....her love for her is so much greater than mine...though i knw that her great grandma passed away one or two yrs ago, she still missed her...and even do art based on it....it really make me miss great grandma a lot....i knw that she is a very good woman...that many ppl in my mum's family love her a lot and respect her....and well, yesterday as some of the cg member went to Weiming's grandfather wake, it remind me of great grandma one.....the feeling is totally different though...could see from his relative which is totally different from that of great grandma's wake....i still couldn't figure out why i didn't cry....maybe i don't anything? maybe i was too young? bt i doubt so....if not i won't be feeling this way now...i believe that God has a plan for it...maybe someone may come to me one day and told me they miss someone in their family that has passed away and that i may be able to relate to them.....hmm....bt well, God has always been my Comforter...He is always there to comfort me and say to me "Be still and know that I am God"....though this is a song, bt this song really impact me and really make me trust even more in the Lord....and i believe that whatever breakthrough that i have in my life, it is of a purpose that God put in my life....and well, yesterday, i vomit again while praying...at that time i'm having a headache...so i pray that God would deliver me from the pain...coz it has been going for a long time liao...bt yesterday, i prayed immediately when i said that...and well, i vomit and vomit....and when i stop and pray again, i vomit again...until i vomit blood....some blood came out....and when i stop vomitting and went to bed, i could taste blood.....eww.....bt well, nobody at home knws abt it....except for mum...juz told her a few min ago....maybe she is bringing me to see the doc...not sure abt it...hmm.....today, for my practical, all the questions i practically knw it....Praise the Lord...well, i stop here for now.....