HaPpY!!!

Dear blog, u knw wat? yesterday i went out with mum, sean, samuel, aunty lacey and aunty mina to eat at a steamboat cum teppanyaki cum diy ice cream...had so much fun..haha...i, sean and samuel sit together and well, we cook all kinds of wierd stuff...for eg, i cook for samuel a dish tat is scrambled eggs inside with chicken...haha...aunty lacey or aunty mina tasted it...and well, they are such good cook bt they say that it is alright...haha...yeah...first time someone say that wat i cook is alright....hmm...had so much fun yesterday...we celebrated samuel's bday...well, yesterday mum blessed me with a shirt and a band that can be used as wrist band, necklace, leg band....well, it is not for decorative purpose...it is for my health...to relieve pain...haha...and it cost 40 pluz...wat a waste of money though...then sean and samuel get one too....well, mum paid for it...she always like to pay for them...don't knw why too...haha...felt that she loves them more than she love me...bt well, i don't mind though...coz their dad don't knw disappear to where liao...and well, i love samuel too.....he is so cute...haha...well, i juz discover that what a bhb i am...haha....coz today, this girl who is together with siew mei, ask a lot abt me...and she say that i'm cute...oh well, haha...sorry bt i have to admit that it might be the fact...haha...wat a bhb i am...haha....coz xue hui say i am too....bt well, i don't think so though...actually, i felt very sad abt my relationship with her....coz well, last time i used to bully her while we are at a camp during pri 6.....and well, she forgave me and that she say if i didn't "play" with her, she wouldn't have remember me and that she say that i've impacted her life too...well, i believe that though i don't really get to talk to her that much, i can still impact her too...and that i want to the history maker that will impact those around me and show them that Jesus loves them and that through me, they will get to know that God is indeed a good God...i want to be a vessel that God can use me so mightifully to shine forth His name....i knw that i'm much of a ppl-person since pri sch as many teachers said that bt well, juz coz of wat happen, i've become a different person...and knw, i'm glad that God has saved me from my pit of darkness and out of the "silentness" of me.....remember during sec 3 someone once came to say "hi" to me...and i juz kept quiet....then she said that i've changed completely...to become a person so cold that she couldn't feel me there anymore...i don't want to become like that anymore...bt i believe that i can do more for God...for He has make me the person i am right now....and i will not let anything take it away anymore...i don't want to be a "cold-blooded" person...haha...well, i juz knw that grandma is in the hospital....coz yesterday i overheard wat the adult say...and nobody told me abt it...felt so sad abt it.....is she alright now? is anything going to happen to her? well, i shall not worry, for God did not give us a spirit of fear...2 Tim 1:7...well, i juz realise that i've been too kind to many of the ppl around me that they have misused my patience towards them....ppl are taking me for granted...sometimes, i felt that though i've tried my best to help someone, that person do not appreciate it and well, in turn, the person turned against me.....well, i believe that i've tried to help as much as i can, and well, i treat all my friends the same way too.....so therefore, i believe that helping ppl is a good thing though sometimes it require u to sacrifice some parts of u...if it could help someone in need, why not help? i shall not be selfish....bt praise be to God....for He teaches me not to be a selfish person...for i've learnt that when i become selfish and self-centered, the ppl around me can tell, and that it is very important....well, i'll stop here for now.....

*missing you*