Mounting Board

This are the songs for my mounting board that i plan to put it in to show how i felt before for my theme...that is before i've gain my freedom....i planning to use from the 2nd to the 7th mounting board put up all the feelings that i've felt before, after which, i will show how much God has given me the freedom that i so desire......shouldn't have told so much to Mrs Hwang the other day...haha......only some ppl knw who i want to get away from, to gain back my freedom...i'm not going to say...haha...slowly figure out....

Lying from you
When i pretend
Everything is what i want it to be
I look exactly like what you had always wanted to see--> you are always making me become the person that you want me to be rather than to let me choose my own....
When i pretend
I can forget about the criminal i am
Stealing second after second juz cause i know i can
But i can't pretend this is the way it will stay
I'm juz trying trying to bend the truth
I can't pretend i'm who you want me to be
So I'm lying my way from you--> not that i always want to pretend, bt the thing is that the expectation you put in me, is making me feel so trapped, like a bird...give me back my freedom....
No no turning back now
I wanna be pushed aside
So let me go
No no turning back now
Let me take back my life
I'd rather be all alone
No turning back now
Anywhere on my own
Cause i can see
No no turning back now
The very worst part of you is me
I remember what they taught to me
Remember condescending talk --> you always talk to me so many things abt being a good person and such, bt well, you yourself don't even become a good example to me, wat do you expect from me? why should i become you?
Of who i ought to be
Remember listening to all of that
So i pretended up a person who was fitting in
And now you think this person
Really is me and i'm trying to bend the truth
But the more i push the more i'm pulling away
Cause i'm lying my way from you
This isn't what i wanted to be
I never thought that what i said
Would have you running from me
Like this
The very worst part of you
The very worst part of you
Is me --> this part really shows how much i felt last time...coz last time, you controlled my life so tightly, that you think i'm a burden to you...that you think that i'm wasting your life away...then you want to be seen as a "good" person to others, so you controlled me....though i may not retaliate, you still think that i'm a bug to you in your life......

Hit the floor
There are juz too many
Times that people have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what i think of you
and i protect you out of courtesy
too many times that i've
held on when i needed to push away
afraid to say what was on my mind
afraid to say what i needed to say
too many things that you've said abt me
when i'm not around
you think having the upper hand
means you've got to keep putting me down
but i've had too many stand-offs with you
it's about as much as i can stand
juz wait until the upper hand is mine
so many people like me
put so much trust in all your lies
so concerned with what you think
to juz say what we feel inside
so many people like me
walk on eggsheels all day long
all i know is that all i want
is to feel like i'm not stepped on
there are so many things you say
that make me feel like you've crossed the line
what goes up will surely fall
and i'm counting down the time
cuase i've had so many stand-offs with you
its about as much as i can stand
so i'm waiting until the upper hand
is mine
I know that i'll never trust a single thing you say
You knew your lies would divide us
but you lied anyway
and all the lies have got you floating
up above us all
byt what goes up has got to fall
this song really demonstrate how i felt....so i'm using it for my art...coz you have been lying and lying and lying...and you are controlling others now...you let go of me, bt you are still controlling.....the reason why i'm putting all this songs is to show the anger and hatred i have before i could be set free, which is at the last mounting board which i will put the song "free" by hillsong....that is really going to show how much i felt now....

Figure 09
Get away from me
Gimme my space back
you gotta just go
everything comes down to memories of you
i've kept it in but now i'm letting you know
i've let you go
get away from me
I've let myself become you
i've let myself become lost inside of you
giving up a part of me
i've let myself become you

Numb
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless
Lost under the surface
I don't knw what you expect of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
caught in the undertow
juz caught in the undertow
every step that i take is another mistake to you
i've become so numb
i can't feel you there
become so tied
so much more aware
i'm becoming this this
all i want to do
is to more like me
and be less like you
can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought i would be
has fallen apart right in front of you
caught in the undertow
juz caught in the undertow
every step that i take is
another mistake to you
caught in the undertow
juz caught in the undertow
and every second i waste is more than i can take
but i know
i may end up failing too
byt i know
you were juz like me
with someone dissappointed in you