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29th Sept-1 Oct:
Hmm, well, juz wanna update abt wat really happen within this few days...hehe...well, dear blog, i've been busy on this few days with my art so therefore, i didn't manage to update you..haha...hmm...so don't get angry...haha...art..hmm...being rushing it through...God is so great...He is there to provide me with the creativity, the strength that i need...hehe...well, haha...so many things happen in the emergency...hehe...bt so many...so tired to type it out....haha...too bad blog, you won't get to see it... :p
2 Oct:
Well, today, i went back to school at around 8 pluz to hand in my art...the time due is 9am...well, this is the first time that Mrs Hwang didn't really say anything abt my art...except that i like to paste thing slanting..haha..then i reply her that i'm not straight...not as in you knw, a "bisexual" or stuff...bt that well, i can't stand straight, i can't sit up straight, haha...wat nonsense...haha...so well, she accepted my work and well, i went to help Amirah with her art...help her spray a bit too...then my hands got a bit of stain...hmm...then i was supposed to meet Shu Yin at 10am..coz we plan to go to church real early to study...and really study...bt well, she changed the time to 11am....so i went to Burger King to have my breakfast..hmm...then i read a book...wow...the book is really very impacting...very inspiring...hehe...abt a praying woman...then i told God that i'm going to be a very strong praying woman....hehe...a woman of great faith....hee...well, when we reach church, the children church is having their big day....wow...so many children...hehe..Praise the Lord for all these children..we can't go into cafe, so well, i and Shu Yin went to rooftop...at there, it is super warm...haha...bt i manage to do my maths though....haha...then after which i helped Sis Sheena to mark the mock exam paper...hehe...seems like a teacher though...haha..though i don't want to be a teacher...hehe..during service, when we sang the song the part where "all walls are falling down, as all the nations praise, and all the world will hear this shout, can you hear the sound of faith?" lots of things came flooding into me...i felt that the Holy Spirit is doing a work in me...He reminded me of wat Bro Victor has told me in the bus...that is to keep on praying and praying...and at one point in time, at that one prayer, that one knock, the walls will juz fall down, collapse to the ground...at that point, i could things abt my sch kept coming to me...i felt that the Holy Spirit seems to be telling me not to give up, coz at that point in time, i don't knw wat is the next step that i have to take for my sch, and that will there be ppl coming to church and into His Kingdom or not from my sch..at that moment, when we sing as all the nations praise, and all the world will hear this shout, can you hear the sound of faith" that part, i felt that the nations refer to my school in my case, that many in my sch will come to praise His Holy Name, and we will shout His glory, and that the whole world refer to those unsaved in my sch, that they will come to get to know Him through us...wow, so great it is yesterday, to get encouragement from the Lord...for He gives encouragement to those who need it...i will hang on to the experience that i had yesterday...will never let go...no...i will never let go...not now, not even to the end of the age...for He is so near to me...so very near....yesterday fellowship many ppl went home early, coz they have to go home and study...hmm...so Sis Sheena asked if i want to go out and play...haha...of course i want though...bt got no where to go..hmm...i really long for a break...so tired...well, interesting things happen to me this few days....juz this day itself, i experienced many things...haha...juz like i prayed earlier in the day...to experience something new...i saw a blind man, a woman who talks to herself, abt some very racist stuff against a malay woman...at that point in time, i felt that the Holy Spirit seems to be telling me to go and talk to her...bt well, i didn't obey..haiz...coz i'm afraid...the woman doesn't seem to be stable, and she kept looking at me...and well, there is a sudden fear in me....for wat i do not know...felt so bad...haiz...well, this few days, i've been seeing lots of dragonfly...everyday....since thursday...

3 Oct:
Well, today i woke up in the morning feeling very tired...here pain there pain...haha...then i saw the msg that Sis Sheena send to me..that we will not go running today...haha...Praise the Lord for that....if nt i will be super tired...hmm...haha..too much lactic acid...haha..i think so... :p...well, cgm was great today...sis Sheena manage to preach finish super fast...wow...i was kind of erm surprise when she say finish....haha...felt so different today...cg start early, end early...manage to reach hm early too...hehe...well, before i went hm, was considering whether or not i should go out and study, or go to mich house to study, go running or go hm and rest...well, guess i choose to go hm and rest...haha...reached hm i went to rest for abt 45min...uncle wang came to fix the comp...to install USB port....haha...Praise the Lord for that..well, saw dragonfly again..this time it is at a very strange place...a place that a dragonfly shouldn't be at...why is that so? does the dragonfly mean something? i saw it twice today...and everyday for the past 3 days i've been seeing it...strange though...hehe...well, i juz discover that this few days, dad doesn't seems to be bothered by wat i'm doing...all he is bothered is he, himself, his face and his money...when will he change? how i miss the old him...too bad i can't get it back...no one can...no one can change him...except God...as how He has changed a person such as me to become who i am today...if i didn't go to church, i would have been a person of vulgarities, a person of anger, hatred, a person who suffers depression always...thank God for rescuing me...for if not i might have landed in the hands of bad company...hehe...well, i saw Zhi Ying today...she didn't saw me...bt i saw her...was reminded of the times we did so many bad things together, bully ppl and stuff...thank God that i'm no longer a person like that...hehe...was changed 180 degrees...hehe...Praise be to God...i think she is being released liao...nt sure though...well, stop here now... :p