Policy of appeasement

Dear blog, hmm...2day i can't believe tat i spent the whole day at home...except to go downstairs to buy food...actually i don't feel like eating....bt no choice...tat guy at home...later will get scolding...waste my money though...i didn't eat that much....threw away the rest...waste food...haha...and you know wat, this is the second time i've to survive with juz 6 dollars....and no other savings....my bank account dry now....and you know wat, i juz got my allowance yesterday....and i can't believe tat i'm left with so little....hmm....give some for tithe and offering....abt 1/5 gone...so tats alright....bt the rest....another 1/5 gone to dont knw where....and the rest some i'm giving back to mum....i owe her money....hmm....so poor thing...left with 6 dollars...bt its alright...i shall trust God to supply me with all my needs according to His riches in Christ Jesus...amen...hehe....shouldn't have waste the money eating 2day.....hah....hmm....and well....all my friends bday are coming....and well, all are so dear a friend to me...bt i confirmed buying 2...haha.....and 2day completely i didn't talk to him....coz i'm pmsing....later i burst again...so better not...and he is staring at me like don't knw wat...and i can't explain the fact tat today i'm so tired...haha....i slept in the afternoon...haha.....hmm....and you knw wat, im planning to go out this week...and always like this one...whenever i needed it, tat guy would attack...no wonder looking at me tat way...no way i'm going to give in man....you think i won't retaliate? i would...if you don't stop wat you are doing...think i'm so easy to bully ar? i've had enough of all this...of so many ppl bullying me....i'm going to go crazy if i don't do something...it will hurt me so badly inside....and God did nt give us a spirit of fear...so i'm going to handle all you ppl tat is giving me trouble one by one...after tuesday...you think i'm not serious? i am....i know tat you are reading my blog.....every now and then...and telling all your friends....well, to tell you the truth, with friends like you, i dont' need enemy...and btw, i manage to contact my friends tat i'm close to...and if they ever found out abt this, you in trouble...coz they have a policy of not letting any one in the group to be bullied by others....and you always bully me...thinking tat i've changed over the years....so i won't retaliate back...and you think tat those friends of mine from the other group has all gone girls home and stuff so i won't dare to do anything, well, though i won't use violence anymore, i will handle you in a gentleman way...or gentlewoman if you like it...and well, you think by talking it doesn't work...wait till you experience it yourself...if i really can't take it anymore i'm telling them..and well, i will say bye bye to you forever...i can't take it anymore!!! i'm going crazy emotionally due to you....and i shall no longer help you...though you take my kindness as watever you want it to be....how many times have you lied to me? and yet i'm so gullible to believe in you....and i've seen right through you....so plz....for your own sake and for my sake, plz don't....and if he's around, he's not going to let you bully me too...and you think tat no one would stand up for me...you think tat though i didn't tell my family then you won't be afraid...haha...well, we've graduated from sch...so well...haha.....watever....i shall not think abt you again...not answering your call and stuff.....waste my time only....unless i see tat you really need help genuine one...then i shall help you....so plz stop watever you are doing...

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