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Dear blog, he did it again...oh well...and this time round, it is he who started it again...and you know wat, mum can't stand it tat she officially started the war...she shouted back at him...and you know wat, i was at the bath room and i could even hear it...haha....and you know wat, he scolded me again and i cried in the bath room...and when i came out, mum was juz talking to me...and i saw her crying..though she quickly wiped it off....he is always like this, making mum cry...pushing all the blame to her....well, today, i could basically can't calm myself down the whole while in the afternoon...and flashback of wat he has done to mum which i witness came flooding my mind...esp the time where he pushed mum and beat her when i was young...and at tat point in time, i was on the bus going to siglap....and i really felt like crying....well, after meeting shuyin, i went to meet kenneth...and after tat, i loiter around...not knowing where to go...juz need a place to rest and calm myself down....actually i planned to go to tat usual place with her...bt she is busy...haha...should have asked zhi ning...she finished her n level liao...haha...and you knw wat, i went to boat quay...and well, boat quay is really a place where you can calm yourself down....not at the side where cell group always go...and some where there....haha....oh well...i'm managed to cool down now...and i shall not get angry anymore...for the Bible says tat when you are angry, you do not sin while you are angry...bt i wonder how long the hurt will go away....only Jesus, my Saviour who died on the cross for me is able to heal me of the hurt...oo...praise His Holy Name...haha...and you know wat, i can't believe tat i actually planned to do wat i did before..with my t-shirt and shorts i will go...haha...bt thank God i didn't....haha.....thank God for it...if not i don't knw wat will happen.....btw, ppl started to talk to me in msn liao....the ppl tat is least likely to talk to me one....haha...is tat a good thing or a bad thing? hahaah....