WaT's GoInG oN?

Dear blog, u knw wat, yesterday service and 2day service was great....well, yesterday service was the one tat impacted me the most...abt the calling of your life...when pastor ulf was preaching abt our calling, it makes me recall back the times tat the Holy Spirit has spoken to me....things tat is related to my calling....it seems like God is trying to renew my mind abt it...ooo...how awesome God is....and u know wat, before tat service, i've been feeling super warm...esp inside my stomach...then around my neck....normally tat only happens when i prayed or when i could sense the presence of God...and i believe tat is the presence of God...i only start to realise it a bit later....tat the presence of God has indeed strengthened me...coz i was a bit tired....and well, praise the Lord for tat, coz even to the very end of the service and a while after tat, i could still feel the presence of God...how awesome He is...praise His Holy Name...and you know wat, there is even at a point of time tat i could feel the presence of God so strongly....a bit suddenly....then wow...my whole face turned red i think.....coz i could feel my whole body burning....esp the three places...stomach, neck and face...hmm....bt well, thank God for it....for His presence....and today service was great too...though i was a bit too tired...coz i wake up and meet rulan at my house downstairs at around 6.45am...before taking bus....haha...hmm....today i went to Perez birthday party...and u knw wat, when i first went into the place, and saw Perez, he was crawling on the floor, so cute!!! and when i bend down wanting to play with him, he crawl towards me and tried to stand...so i pull him up...and he wants me to carry him...bt haha...i don't knw how to carry a baby so i didn't carry him...hmm...haha....and well, he is super duper cute...the cutest baby...and he is smart too....so adorable....and well, there is this time when someone carry him...then i went over to play with him...and well, he uses his finger to touch my mouth...haha...so cute...hmm....well, i think tat he is the cutest baby ever....haha...don't make so much noise too...and so clever!! haha..praise the Lord...really a breakthrough....

well, things are happening so strangely now...i do not knw wat is happening...you seems to be hiding things from me....and u are no longer the same as before....bt how come it happen so fast? i felt so tired of all these, why? you are my friend, and now i'm abt to doubt the things tat u told me abt....the secrets..are they all lies? oh well....this few days, i'm having a headache....like the normal headache....and it got worst....i really got to pray and pray abt it...always happen when i was praying...when i study also have....and now too....it super duper pain....bt by the blood of Jesus, i'm going to be healed.....by faith i receive my healing.....

*if everything is going alright, plz let me knw...so i don't have to worry for u....and i suffering from wat i suffer last time...i dont knw why too...bt it is coming...got signs of it...i'm praying against it right now...can't let tat happen again...and u knw wat, discover tat someone seems to like taking stuff away from me....and well, firstly, it was my bike....secondly, it was my money....and now thirdly, my emotions......when all else fades away, my love for You will never fade away..i'm going to rest now...2morrow really got to rush my art liao....for Christians out there reading my blog, plz pray for me...really need your prayer...coz i believe tat prayer works....thanxs a million.... and you know wat, its been 2 wks since my o's and only 2 ppl have sincerely ask me how was it...and it's not my family members...coz on the surface of it they don't seem to care abt it.....coz none of them even ask if i can handle it....the fact is...nvm....haha....oh well...bt i knw tat God cares...and He loves me too....and tat is the most important thing of all...when all else fades away, God will always be there.....and nobody can make you feel the way He make you feel...the love....the care....and when you are down, He will be by your side....you can feel it..trust me...many times when i cried myself to sleep, and i will pray, and i could basically feel Jesus coming close to me...hugging me ....and slowly bt surely, when i couldn't go to bed, He will be there...smoothering me to sleep...how awesome...bless His Holy Name...i'm going to bed now...good night...