Dear blog, hmm....well, i juz woke up...bt i've got lots of things that is in my mind right now....hmm...last night before i went to sleep, i prayed....and praise the Lord for yesterday...yesterday mum's ex cell group leader bought her 2 books...and mum bought 2 books too....and well, guess what, mum blessed me with one...yeah!! Praise the Lord....God is so great....though Christmas is over, but i still receive gifts nonetheless...well, while sleeping, i dreamt of something....i dreamt of many many things...and well, this few days everything seems alright now....in the family, with friends and such..bt well, i could still feel the hurt inside of me...everything is alright now...but i seems to be bleeding on the inside...emotionally..i don't have the courage to face it..and God is so great....i dont remember what i dreamt about...but before i sleep, i prayed to God for His presence to stay with me while i'm sleeping...and wow...God is indeed so great...because through my dreams, i cried..really cried...in fact, i have been wanting to cry to realise myself...but i couldnt...feel so terrible...and well, praise the Lord for that dream....coz i cried...and now i felt much better...felt so.....FREE!!!....yeah...praise the Lord...God is so great...i prayed for the vision of the cg yesterday...though we are only left with about 2 more days to the new year, i'm still believing that our cg will have retention...and integration....if God can bring these people to us, we have got to be a good steward, not juz in terms of fiances...but also in people...these people...their salvation is in our hands....i still haven't set my goals and resolutions yet...esp in terms of studies...coz i don't even know where i'll go..but i trust God that i can go to a poly that i want to go...and the course too....hmm...i shall pray for my resolutions and goals for the new year....well, 2004 has been a great year, i've achieved most of my goals....which is good...praise the Lord...hehe.....stop here for now...