Dear blog, i went out juz now with mum...and well, during lunch, i complained to mum abt dad and sis....and well, i talked and talked abt them...she juz listen..haha....and i don't think she can stand it too...she must have felt the way i feel.....and well, i think she pity me...and well, today, i went to get the angel and mortal stuff...i borrowed money from my mum to buy..actually wanted to borrow $40 from her...so the leftover i can use to buy some other stuff...and well, so sad to say, my mum wanted to buy with me...so she can signed by credit card....and well, i actually planned to get something within my budget...and well, at that shop, i actually choose something within my budget...bt mum says to get something better for my mortal...and guess wat, she said that it is better to get something good and nice for my mortal and that which she can use and well, paying a few dollars more is worth it..and guess what, i pay extra $10 over dollars...haha!....and so sad to say, i've to return it back to my mum...haha...bt i think my mortal would like it...i pray that she would like it...coz i owe my mum a lot of money...and well, i've to work next month to pay her back...and maybe my mortal would like what i buy...haha....hmm...it cost abt 3 to 4/5 of my allowance....hmm.....mum promised to buy a shorts for me...so we went to isetan...and guess wat, when i told her i wanna buy a short boardshorts for girls one, she say cannot...maybe it is too short? haha....bt the price is $55 dollars i think...and well, she asked me to choose others.....so i went to choose boardshorts....those that i normally wear...and i went to try..that is the last piece for that design....and well, it fit me perfectly....so i asked mum to buy for me...and guess wat, praise the Lord for such great blessings, coz my mum bring the shorts to the counter and pay...haha...and guess how much it cost.....it cost abt $60 over...round off to$70...hhaha...i've got this feeling that she is buying this to make me feel better...coz she knows that i'm a person who feels that ppl care and love me by this two ways: 1) buy me things, 2) spend time with me....so as she dont' have time to spend with me, she buy for me this billabong boardshorts...bt whatever it is, i'm happy to have it...bt yar lar...last time she will nag at me for wanting a shorts that cost $70....more expensive than her formal pants....haha...

well, today, i'm feeling a bit better emotionally....bt in the morning....it is still the same...i do not know why, bt i can't help having that thought...hmm...i'm becoming wary of some stuff now...and btw, i discover that that guy has been touching my stuff again...i open my drawer and i see many things missing....he either threw it away or took it....or place it somewhere else...as for my money...i do not know also...haiz....watever it is, i dont' care anymore...haiz.....juz as long as he dont' throw away all the things that my friend and cg member give me one...if not i'll scream and shout at him..coz it is very precious to me....