Dear blog, i'm back to blog again....hmm...it seems so wierd trying to blog...coz i'm lazy to do so..haha! btw, well, this few days have been feeling down again....due to some probs again...and guess wat, i nearly died many many times this few days...and God is so awesome...everytime i manage to escape death....and well.....i do not know how i should feel, how i should react....how i should go abt doing things...bt well...i'm trying my best...doing nothing will make me feel even worst...if there is nothing for me to do, i might think of doing something stupid...oh well....is she coming back today? i do not know.....and after that talking yesterday, that guy doesn't seems to have changed in his mindset...still assuming he is right...wat a guy full of pride....and i hated it...i hated it....and well, guess wat, i've start to hate men and women...haha...then who do i like? well, i only like ppl that i like..ppl that i'm closed to..my friends and stuff.....watever lar...i'm going crazy...when i'm in, must faced them...when i'm out, must face them and them too....so there is nowhere i can hide and cry...have...bt everytime when i reach a certain place for me to cry, tears juz don't seems to drop...like watever..oh well...probs in and probs out....ppl think that i've only got probs in...bt they failed to realise the prob out.....emotionally disturbed....i don't wanna go into depression again..not a good thing to be in....hmm...stop here for now...i'm so bored...i wanna go overnight prayer meet! haha...