Dear blog, well, i juz woke up...and guess wat, there is a loudspeaker at home that keeps talking and talking and talking...y not go be the newscaster or something? so noisy~headache lar...haiz...so selfish one...everyday sleep at night and in the afternoon then nv think of others....and i ask him for my dinner money yesterday...and he don't wanna give it to me...as though i'm super rich...keep taking and don't wanna give me...bt the best thing is that he lost his money...haha...too bad...haha..i'm feeling that i'm becoming more and more bad these few days...am i? ahaha....

You know what, these few days i've being having these thoughts, that is i wanna shout to the whole world this: I HATE MYSELF TO THE CORE! haha....like watever...hhaha...bt that is true, everyone is feeling that way abt me....i'm always the one who give lots of trouble..in sch, home...everywhere...like watever...haa....oh well....i'm trapped in this cycle...dad and mum and sis doesn't seems to like me anymore...and i don't even know wat is going on with my relatives...juz bits and pieces...then i anyhow guess...haha....so crazy of me.....

btw, everything starts with me...i'm such a bad person...causing this person angry and stuff....causing them to leave and stuff...causing their blood vessel to burst...hahaa.....bt well, my blood vessel burst many times already...haha...btw, i'm still not feeling well...don't wanna burst again.....well, many of you when you read this you may think that i'm talking abt ppl in church...bt well, it is for you, the one whom i've hurt so badly, i'm so sorry...when you left, everyone was blaming me...yar...it is my fault....i thought i saw you yesterday....bt well, juz wanna say, i'm sorry...i know that they've get over it...bt it is still my fault....and know the clique is gone, so plz forgive me.....