Dear blog, yesterday was such a day at the chalet...well, i, mich, shuyin and shar went to the beach to play with water...and well, we had so much fun....and we saw many tiny crabs on leaves floating everywhere...and well, i saw 2 of the little crabs...female ones...so cute...hahaha.....well, the chalet was a bit boring though...nothing much to do...and well, i, mich, shuyin and rui we went to mac....then we talked abt some stuff...and well, after which we went back to the chalet to celebrate rui's bday...haha....hmm...haha...oh well....and well, yesterday i told sis sheena abt tat thing...and oh well....hmm...felt much better....well, i can't believe that yesterday i really cannot take it anymore....and thank God it is not like on fri or sat...where i really cannot take it anymore that i really wanted to box someone...haha...bt thank God for calming this raging tempest....haha....oh well....sis sheena told me some stuff and well, was really glad that she told me all those things as it really makes me understand and realise many many things....God is so awesome...and well, after which, i went to walk....and well, there is this time tat i really feel like running straight into the sea and commit suicide...coz at that moment in time, i suddenly realise that i do not know wat i'm feeling...as though i'm juz an empty shell....well, there is this time tat i really run...run straight...i do not know why i run, bt maybe coz after running i seems to feel much better after all....hmm....well, really want to thank God for rui....she is always there when you needed her...always there ready to help.....hmm.....and after which, some of the sisters were juz sitting around the table and talking...well, i, shuyin and wei ming we didn't sleep the entire night...and i and shuyin actually wanted to watch the sunrise...we waited for the sun and well, the sun juz disappoint us...haha..bt well, we talked abt some stuff...and well, i told shuyin abt the vision tat i saw abt her.....then there is this point in time where i remember a song...a song that really touched my heart...feels like as though God is speaking straight into my heart...and well, ive decided to make this decision: that is to never leave God no matter wat happens...and i will not leave God due to ppl...for He is so dear to me...so close to me.....so near to me....whenever i call His name, there He will be.....oo...Praise the Lord forever....well, this morning, while sitting and waiting for the sunrise, i was thinking abt many many things tat have been flooding my mind for quite long....and well, when it seems so heavy to bear, i realise that there are ppl around me that still care for me...thank God for this ppl....for without this ppl, in the past, in the present, i wouldn't know where i will be....well, i've make up my mind already...that is to be serious with my walk with God, i want to move on in life.....and not coz of some ppl or some things tat stopped or distract my walk with God...i really long for more of His move in my life....ooo...praise the Lord o my soul....i realise that the ppl around me, those that i'm close with, well, basically, i felt that these ppl love the Lord so much, that well, even when thoughts of giving up came, they juz hold on...for God is so dear to them....so dear to us all...without Him, where would i be? well, i believe that watever God has given me, be it dreams, visions...it will come to pass....