Feelings

Dear blog, hmm...i do not know why, bt well, juz have this urge to want to blog...Christmas is coming, i've msg all of the ppl in my contact list....only abt less then 10 reply...nvm...shall call them one by one...oh well...oh those that reply...wat can i say...haiz...all working...work work work...thank God i'm not working...Christmas is coming....guess wat, this is the first time i felt so pathetic....haha...christmas seems so...so pathetic to me this year...haha...so sad....mum doesn't want to buy for me pressie...then dad he nv buy one...how abt sis? i doubt so...hmm...oh well...i feel so....lonely...haha...he is not in singapore...wat can i say? those peeps that i like always not around when i needed them....haiz...why are u not in spore? if not abt 1/4 of my wishlist can be stroked off coz u will buy for me...haha..i'm so materialistic...oh no...bt well, actually, wat i do care abt more is u staying or be here....there goes for the rest too...so lonely in spore...so many went overseas...left me here...so sad...btw, talking abt pressie...i think i'll only have two....haha...so sad...bt the worst thing is well..they are not here...will feel so lonely...why? wat is so good abt overseas? haha...hmm....so hard to say goodbye..so easy to say hi...can't believe that i still can't get over him...why is it so difficult to get over someone? haha...thought i saw guy d today...seems so wierd..the feelings...haha...4 years ago and now...wow...wat a big difference...ever since i know him i've stroking off the rest...coz he is one of the best man...haha...man oh man..i shall not worry abt this now...coz when it is time, God will give me someone that i love...haha...hmm...