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Dear blog, on tuesday, i went to meet sis joyce with mich...well, sis joyce said some stuff that really hit my heart....really want to thank God for that...hmm...i want to be an armorbearer....and not be like the one that sis joyce said....i want to protect...not the other way round...hmm....well, after that, i went to meet shuyin and guess wat, she is earlier than i am for the first time! Yeah! Praise the Lord! and we reach the chalet early...no one was there...we waited for 2 hours....haha...hmm....it was a bit boring over there on tues...no one was there...haa....hmm...bt wednesday was fun...we had our appreciation night...haha...so much fun..the friends enjoy themselves...and some of us stayed up till the morning..haha....except for mich and shuyin..the two sleepy heads..haha...can remember how they react when i wake them up...well, i'm very tired physically...sick....hmm....

The moment i step into my house, everything seems so different...everything's changed...sis is home...furniture changed...atmosphere changed....everything's changed...did i stepped into the wrong house? red paints at the doorstep...dad painting some furniture red.....everything's different....felt so different....felt so insecure....no longer what i call home....everyone need a place where they feel safe to return to...that is what uncle Freddie say...is this what i call safe? everything's different...dad doesn't speak to me....sis doesn't really speak to me....mum speak one or two sentence to me....i ask her if she could bring me to the doctor...but she juz ask me to eat panadol...i've eaten a lot of panadol this few days...i doubt my body can take it...think it is immune to it....now when i really make up my mind in the chalet thinking on tuesday about it...and when i've really want to become serious in making everything work out fine, now the people are actually making me regret what i've juz decided...should i hang on or should i juz let itt be? sis joyce said something the other day....should i really take that decision i've made?

*Can anyone be so kind to bring me to the doctor? I don't dare to go alone...but i've no cash..so how?...haha...*

*God is my Healer.....may God send His healing power to come upon me...i believe i can be healed in Jesus Name...*


*Praise the Lord for everything......for tuesday....where i really make up my mind..that i won't give up so easily juz because circumstances came, which is like a wall...right in front of me...blocking me...but rather, i would pray...pray for God's strength...to break that wall down...God is so great...was praying on tuesday....worshipping God is so much so refreshing....praise His Holy Name....i should not give up due to one or two person....
the bad always influence the good.....so many people are influencing me in a bad way...esp that girl whom i've known for about one quarter of my life.....hmm..i'm 16..so yar..haha!....actually maybe half of my life? hmm...don't know...haha*