STOP LAR!

Dear blog, i think i've enough of all these.....and you ppl think that i dont' mind...bt now tat i'm beginning to see it all....beginning to see through everything...it is then tat i realise that its wrong for me to sacrifice...all the sarcrifices done for you...you think that it's my job to do it...you think tat it is my job to sastify your needs...you think tat i'm here juz to help you...for you to play and joke with...for you to make use of...and you think tat i'm here for you to destroy....stop it with you! stop all that nonsense...i'm telling you this right now...no...i'm warning you this right now....my anger is burning so strong in me right now..i'm not feeling well physcially and this is happening to me...and you know wat, you think i don't mind...bt nowadays, i don't find it anymore meaningful..you've make use of me so many times...and i can't take it anymore...i'm about to burst...so many ppl...so many ppl have being making use of me...not one, not two....bt many.....I"VE HAD ENOUGH OF THIS!! GET AWAY FROM ME!! PLZ!! I BEG YOU!! GIVE ME SOME REST CAN?? oh well.....some i doubt is reading this...bt i'm telling you, now that my saddness can be release as i can cry it out now...i juz cried....wat a waste of my time doing that....all due to you...and well, if you don't know me well enough, if i've not released my sorrow deep inside me for long, and if you ever say things to me again, i will start to get angry and box you...like how it used to be....you might think i wouldn't dare...and sometimes i juz can't control myself...you've been bullying me like don't know wat...and though i appear happy always, deep down i'm not...so plz...if you are concern for me, care for me, do it sincerely...not coz you've to...not coz you've no choice...for God gave each one of us choice...and well, nobody in this world really love me...except for God, some friends, and of course R......the rest are juz like hypocrites...trying to act in front of me...and well, i so sorry to say, bt i'm a very emotional person...and you think i'm strong...yar..in front of you...so that you won't bully me...bt you did....bt everytime, i will juz close the toilet door and cry...trying not to make noise....it is very difficult you know tat....you go and try tat lar....thinking wat, making use of me....stop tat lar....i beg you......let me go will you....let me go....plz....i beg you...

*i don't want to go into depression again...so if you love me, plz stop that....and allow me some space....some space for me to breathe...thanxs...and juz to let you know...my health prob are coming back...so yar...unless you really want me to perish, then continue wat you are doing...*