TeEtH...

Dear blog, 2day i went to the dental appointment...well, i was late for the appointment..bt i went in even later...haha...and you know wat, before tat i was sneezing and sneezing...coz of fluu...then my eyes very watery...then when i lie down for him to check my teeth, the tears juz flow out of my eyes...then he was shocked...he asked, "wat's wrong?" haha...then i told him nothing wrong...then he seems to be like...haha....don't know wat to do...bt oh well, i make pink colour...haha...coz shuyin called me to make pink....haha..so i make pink...hmm....oh well, 2day i've eaten cheesecake and mocha frap...hehe...love mocha frap...talking abt oreo cheesecake always remind me of something....haha....

Juz now at msn is super duper funny...shuyin became our mother...haha...all of us called her "mama"...and she is the youngest there! hehe...so cute...haha....watever...haha..and well, we kept having "war"...all thanxs to me!! haha...always having war with mich....first time coz she beat up shuyin...haha.....bt after tat for some lame reason...even have war with shuyin...my "mama"...hhahaa....okok....enough of this..

mum still not home yet...and dad is pacing up and down...haha...as though so afraid tat mum would run away like tat....really, he is trying to applepolish my mum now...and you know wat, i dislike *applepolishers*...hmm.....btw, i've been disliking him since pri 1....well, do i really don't like him? maybe coz he has been giving me so much probs....thats why...bt why can't i let go? forgive him, jiali...is it so difficult? hmm.....oh well.....

btw, i've discovered tat i'm moving further and further away from my family...why is tat so? i don't know too....coz i've been walking...and walking...and they are like juz standing there...and looking...not moving to catch up with me....and now the first person i've lost is sis...so near yet so far....second person is mum...third person is him...coz firstly, he is never near to me...so he is always lost....and i think he is thinking this way too....so oh well.....i've got to move on in life....and not wait for them....i'm always slowing down for them...not fair to me....i'm always wasting my time on them...and everytime i did that, i'm always end up with bruises...hurts....and they end up with nothing tat will harm them...sometimes they are happy at the end...and all i've got to do is pretend nothing is happening to me....and ppl thought tat mum is a very understanding person, yes, she is...to ppl...bt she don't knw how to handle me....i doubt she knows...talk to her she dont' understand wat i'm trying to say...always saying words or showing this: "i'm sorry i can't help you"...hmm.....is this true? i do not know....but wat i do know is tat ive feelings too...juz as you have it....and i'm not any other ppl...i'm one who is emotional....not tat i always want to bring this up, bt tats the fact...even teachers say tat too....imagine crying in front of a teacher...so pathetic....imagine crying juz coz i've watched pokemon....haha...ppl will laugh at you, jiali...bt really want to thank God for this...coz this is where i've learnt to put myself in other ppl shoes.....and tat i can be able to know how ppl feel....praise the Lord....hmm...shall stop here for now...

*i know you are very happy to see this, bt plz don't come msging me or call me after you see this asking me if i'm alright...don't be a hypocrite...coz i've seen right through you...."