Dear blog, well, yesterday went for service...before tat, went with sis to phin's to eat..hmm...$20.40..wat a waste of money..i pay somemore...coz i'm the only one who ate there..haha...so yar...take service bus from tamp...i really don't like to take tamp bus, be it go or be it come back....coz...i don't know why also...juz don't like it? hmm...well, service was great...and well, before tat, early in the morning, i've the urge to cry...down with depression..i was thinking...again..i tried not to think abt it...it got worst..hmm...so well, ive smiled to peeps tat i know..bt deep inside, felt so much worst...hmm...well, in service, well, during worship, i cried..and at one point, i can't control it...i felt tat God is wrapping His hands around me...hugging me...great..hee...well, during word, i nearly wanted to scream..bt of course, i didn't...i controlled myself...well, actually yesterday during fellowship, was supposed to leave and meet my friend..bt well, dear friend out there nv wanna pick up phone..later i go there wait like centuries then didn't turn up...so yar...i choose to stay for fellowship...well, yesterday talked to sis sheena abt some stuff...felt so much better...thanx sis sheena....God is so awesome..hm...

Today i went for zone appreciation...wow...good...esp the time where bro gabriel shared...if you want your 2005 to be good, you've to first change your habit...or something like this...wow...great! tats wat i need to do..change my habit...hmm...a big congrats to Kenneth, Jasmine, Sis Sheena and Royston for getting awards...

well, i've made up my mind...that no matter wat happen, i'm not going to let anything to destroy my relationship with God...coz i've discovered through this 3 years or so...without Him, there will be no me....really...coz without Him, i don't even know who i will be today...someone who juz waste time doing nothing serious in life? hang around? going clubbing though i can't get in? hmm...i do not know...bt one thing for sure..i know tat i can't live without Him...God has called me to something great, i shall never let it go...i want to do great things for God...God, plz forgive me for everything tat i've done tat have upset You o Lord...

*shall continue blogging tomorrow*