Wat A DaY!

Dear blog, guess wat, this morning, i wake up early..at around 8 pluz..bt in fact, i am woken up by the sound of sis fidgetting the closet..hmm...6 pluz...and well, i didnt really feel very well...as in physical body..i tried to sleep..managed to sleep..hmm...dream of something yesterday..bt can't remember..so sad...haha! hmm...then well, my hp alarm ring..and well, i off it 2 times..and well, the third time i woke up...feel so nauseous...hmm..as though i'm pregnant...yuck..today i've to go for job interview..mum is going to bring me..coz she is the one who recommended me...hmm..well, ate breakfast and blah blah blah...while walking to taka, i still feel very nauseous..and guess wat, we are abt half an hour late!! as usual..coz go out with mum..she will always make ppl late...hmm...well, on our way there, i was telling mum tat if the person scold coz we are not punctual, i will tell her that i feel very nauseous..wat if walk too fast then later vomit? worst still, vomit at her? right? hah..hmm..so reached there...and met the person..the person initiated a hand shake..hmm..and not only tat, well, today i dress like usual..wore a ring, my quiksilver waist band, ear stud, then my bag with metal chain..hmm...then when she saw me, she was smiling all the way...hmm..her name is kelly..the first thing mum ask is whether is she from our church..coz she is mum's cg mem recommend one..and indeed, she is..and well, my mum so busybody..go tell her i'm from attribute..and guess wat, she is also from attribute..sunday team..hmm..whew..she asked me some questions..so yar..haha...one thing she said..she said tat there are some rules and regulations...she said,"firstly, you've got to change your hair color." then in my mind, i was thinking, hair color? wat color? pink, blue, green? haha..u didn't say wat color..juz ask me to change colour only wat..haha...hmm..oh gosh...im feeling so rebellious..hmm...she will call me back again..haha..tat has been something tat make me feel so uncomfortable...then well, i felt tat well, maybe i shouldn't behave tat way...haiz...make me upset..so many things today make me feel so upset..hmm...then i and mum went shopping..hmm...guess wat, i've got a quiksilver shirt...dont' ask me where i've got the money to buy..think..think..and you will know..haha! hmm...don't be so lazy...hmm...then after tat, we went to Hans..mum blanjah me eat Hans..sirlon steak...medium..nice..haha...sitting in that place, memories juz flood my mind..hmm...after tat, we went to mum's office..another one..make me feel so sad...hmm...why? i don't know..the atmosphere there doesn't seems to be like for a teens like me...everyone was looking at me..well, there are many companies there..so though i know some of the adults there, bt yar..there are others who look at me with those eyes...hmm...i really wanna get out of there..and guess wat, mum kept draggin..and i kept saying i wanna go home..really wanna cry on the spot for her to see...hmm..bt didnt...no courage to...so big already still cry in public...haha..so paiseh..hmm...well, so the story goes and blah blah blah...


*well, juz felt tat i seems to be bullied again..hmm..did i see tat guy again? he reminds me of the times tat he bullied me..all the punches, all the sneering..all the jokes tat he make abt me..wat a horrible memories...and guess wat, i dont' know wat, bt i felt tat i've always been bullied...so sad...can't do the things tat i like, can't enjoy myself..feel so restricted..coz if i do that, ppl might juz bully me again? hmm..i don't know..why am i feeling this? i don't know...don't ask me...*

*well, guess wat, this morning i woke up..have a feeling tat something is going to happen..and well, it did...my feelings are always right..though sometimes i say dont' trust feelings, bt how come they are always right? i don't know...i trust in God more than i trust in my feelings....*

*got so much to want to blog, bt no mood to blog...hmm...feel like crying it out nw...bt can't...i'm nt wallowing in self-pity..coz its a different thing...*

*there is only one cure for missing someone, that is to see the person...if you can't see the person, it will juz slowly become a memory of yours...*

*hmm..my phone in service now...nearly got corrosion...coz the other time in chalet while charging hp, someone placed my hp in the freezer..urgh..haha..whoever it is, well, dont know still got warranty or not...if don't have, then must pay, then wow..wat a waste of money..hmm...*