hmm...woke up at 6am today...was feeling...super duper tired...and guess wat, i crawl out of bed..yeah...really went to sleep at around 5am..so well, 1hr of sleep? yeah...well, called mei yi..she off her phone...then was deciding whether to call her house..bt decided not to....then while bathing, i told myself in my heart, that she will answer the call when i bathe finish...sure enough...she answered....haha...yeah...then we go church and well, service was great...about grace and love...will share with u all later..yeah...and well, throughout the whole service, basically, i was super duper tired still....so during worship, i near fell asleep..not good though...so i said a small prayer for strength..and sure enough, God is so awesome...i managed to last throughout the whole service...then blah blah blah...then on the way to sis sheena house...my headache came back, feel nauseous...then reach sis sheena there..i puked...yeah..bt thank God, i didn't ate anything..so puck out white stuff...yeah...then really...was feeling tired, sick...and so on...didn't really feel like going for cg...bt deep inside me, i really yearn to go for cg...coz i know that something great is going to happen in cg today...and sure enough...though throughout praise, i felt a bit uncomfortable, bt when it comes to worship...i start to tell myself...stop thinking that way...and to focus on worshipping God...and sure enough...God's pressence is there...i wept...yeah...and this time round, i felt so refreshed...God's strength..even until now...i don't feel tired at all now....yeah...how great my God is....yeah..and guess wat, when sis sheena has finished preaching the Word, and she said something..that really really touched my heart...could feel God's pressence...felt as though that God is saying something to me..sure enough...after singing refuge....God spoke through sis sheena....yeah...really great...juz what i needed...God is not too fast, not too slow...bt juz right there when u needed it...oh...Praise the Holy Name of the Lord...and i really wanna thank God for that Word that He has for me by speaking through sis sheena...and i think this is the second or third time that God speaks through my leader in this way..which is that the whole cg can hear..yeah...bt the most impt thing is this, the presence of God....when sis sheena was saying those Words, i could feel the love that God has for me....and blam...i wept...seems like all my burdens has been lifted up to Him..yeah...praise the Holy Name of the Lord..yeah....btw, i've got chorus to a song that i've composed...bt i haven't gotten the verse for the songs yet...haha..and i'm not good at singing...so yar...haha..might not turn out that nice..so yeah...i'm trying my best... :p....one thing that i felt really great today is this: that though i'm tired and stuff, i managed to put God first in my life...i told myself that i can' t coz of my tiredness then i don't accompany mei yi go for service and myself don't go for cg..juz like the bible says, the spirit is willing, bt the flesh is weak...so therefore, i must learnt to crucify the flesh...and thank God i didn't follow my mood today...like wat sis sheena say juz now...we live our lives not based on moods...so thank God i didn't follow my mood juz now...or my emotions...yeah....thank God i fight that thought in my mind to not go for cg...for if i let it win, i might not have experienced God in such a great way...yeah....PRAISE THE LORD!!!

saw Grace on friday...which Grace? haha..i forget her surname...bt well, she's one of my bestest friend last time...bt the saddest thing is this: she landed in girls home...then was released into a private school..yeah..i felt so sad for her...everytime she would protect me when i'm in trouble...yeah..a great friend she is..bt the other day when we saw each other, we juz walked passed each other...and after tat, then i remember who she is...oh gosh...is this the way i treat my friend? haha..yeah...sort of forget her face..haha..bt she doesn't look like she changed a bit..haha..yeah....