Dear blog..hmm..2day's service..well, it was great...actually at that time, coz of the sore throat, i find it hard to breathe...sort of airway close...then after the prayer and such...it got better..praise God for tat...well, went with Shuyin for the Christian Lifestyle bs...well, i know that God has a purpose for everything..and i know why i'm at that lesson at that time...the bs talks about one point..praise is the cure for depression..is that wat i'm looking for? praise God for that...

well...so many things flood my mind right now...sometimes, i feel like i shouldn't tell some stuff to someone...after i told that person about something, less than 1 hour, about 3 people will know about it...that person is always there to listen, always there to help...bt sometimes, when i don't feel like talking about it...i have to..sort of feel like i'm being forced or something....oh well...forget about that...btw, i'm juz so stuck in something...stuck in this situation..everything's not right...and you know wat, when i'm carrying Christian juz now(Pst aries son)...he sort of make noise or something..then i carry him around..i told him everything's alright..then he stop making noise...if i could tell him tat, why couldn't i do the same to myself? i'm so stuck in this situation...can't seem to move on...depression juz get into me...i tried my best not to invite it to my life..bt maybe...i myself let it in...i've so many things in mind....sometimes, it will kill you man...oh well...i know that for sure..this one person will help..that is God..He's always there to help...always..for sure...definitely..bt wat about the rest? i look towards my right, look towards my left..all i see..is my shadow...those friends that i talked to..they know my stuff...all that i told them..and they said that they will help..bt when i look towards my left and right? where are they? then i turn back..there they are...is this the kind of friends that i have?

sometimes, i want to say this for quite long already...that if u want to tell me something, juz tell me..i would rather you tell me than you do things to slowly make me realise it..i don't like that...its easier to accept it when u tell me then making me realise it...

ok..how great...today the oxy thing is freaking me out, my teeth is freaking me out...my perfume is freaking me out...put too much i guess...haha...btw, i don't clothes to wear 2morrow already...all in the wash...sheesh....

ok..how great..those few ppl tat i talked to today...that told me their results..and it seems like i'm the only one with such lousy results...oh well....the bedok north student ic got 8 points...ppl ic i also ic...oh well...sheesh...

maybe, i should have made that decision..now i feel so miserable....maybe its self-pity..bt i don't really pity myself though...oh well..watever it is...God help me....

bedok north revival..haha..sis sheena talked to us about it today..it reminds me of east spring revival..haha...everything i plan it myself and stuff..then i fasted and prayed...members under me don't seem to go along with my vision..bt i thank God that at the end of the year...revivial came..juz as wat i have prayed and fasted about..praise the Lord for it...thank God i had that chance to do something for my school...

i'm tired...bye for nw...

maybe i should juz try to call that hotline again and look for that person to talk to..haha....