LoOk BeLoW!!

Hmm...i do not know why..but after reading one part of the revelation of hell, i juz feel like writing this down in my blog..i've never written this in my blog before..bt i got this urge or this thing in me to write it down...its sort of abt my life..and i've never shared this before..so here goes..and don't ask me why i wrote this down here...coz i juz don't know..juz following wat is urging my heart to do so...even when i take my afternoon nap i'm thinking about this..ahha!

ok..about my life..

2001-read my sis bible..someone gave it to her..and she juz chuck it one side..wasn't a believer then..so i was quite interested in it, so i decided to read it..and well, from tat point on, i believe in Jesus Christ..that He is my Saviour...but i didn't receive salvation yet...know quite a bit about God and stuff...then few months later, did a survey for this church..and from that time onwards, they've being "disturbing" me..waiting outside school for me and such..give me bs..about God and stuff..yes, their doctrine is sound..but their people are not...they sort of want to "recruit" people to their church..and sis experienced it before...only when i decided to retaliate then they decided not to disturb me...and when i left, it is then that i realise that one of the reason why my sis turned bad is coz of the ppl in that church..but regardless of that, i still read the bible..but my life was terribly screw up..did some terrible things in my life...

2002-things get worst in the beginning...then sis went to teen challenge..or streetwise programme or something..get to know sis Joyce..so she went to church..many times she asked me to go to church..though i wanted, bt i was very lazy to wake up early..then alyssia suggest tat i go to her church...Holy Trinity..a catholic church..at tat time, i believed in Jesus..and i dont' really like the idea of catholism..so i didn't go with her...bt in July, i went to church with sis..hoping that the church will be the one for me...and i know and i know that i want to get saved..received salvation..so i went to the church..then the pastor talks about tithe..and the first time that i go to city harvest is the first time that i tithe...then comes to salvation..i raise up my hand very fast..immediately after he count 3...bt sis doesn't know how to do counselling..so annie helps me..and at tat point in time, tat is the first time i felt the pressence of God..and tat time is the time right there and then that i know i found the thing that i've been wanting all this while reading the bible...

2003-many things happen...throughout the year, i suffered persecutions from classmates, rejections, heartbreaks, seeing familiar spirits and go through depression...those times was though for me..but i still trust in God...many times i wanted to give up, but i didn't..for God is so dear to me..so close to me..so i hang on...near the end, i got my breakthrough...

2004-was sort of a great year for me...i grow in the Lord...i become the student ic...become class vice-chairperson..helper in cg..and i know that i'm in the right track with God...o level year..so many things in my hand..bt still, i hang on..many times i wanted to give up, bt i didn't..thank God for that...i become more responsible in the many things tat i do...and so many things happen in between...bt after o levels, many things sort of happen till the first few months of 2005 and i fall great time...it seems tough to get up on my feet again..as so many things has affected me...

so..how will i write my 2005 next year? will i grow stronger, or will i juz remain where i am? it does not depend on you..or on anyone..bt it depends on me, depends on God..which way i wanted to go...i've decided for myself already...i know it in my heart..and i'm sure i can do it...what about you? how will you write your life? or go through your life? living your life as though there will be time for you? thinking that you can push everything to tomrrow? even knowing God? even coming into the purpose and calling tat God has for you? there is no time or space for you to say "tomrrow..there's still time"...time is running out my friend...how much time have you wasted, saying there's tomrrow, when in fact, you are wasting your life away? when you can use that time for so many great things...wake up!! there's not much time left..anyday, anytime..Jesus will be back..are you ready? or are you not? or are you juz saying, "not today...maybe tomorrow.." no..its not true..how you know that you will live through 2day, that you will not die 2morrow, or even right now? there's no time to waste my friend..choose what you want for your life...choose life..not death...choose to live a life full of victory in Christ Jesus...and not a life of deceit tat the devil wants....watever you choose today, it will affect you 2morrow..your eternity...if you think hell is not real, thats where you are wrong my friend..wrong big time...always remember, there are times that you think that you are not worthy for God to forgive you...but remember this, JESUS FORGIVES ALL SINS...may God bless you in everything you do..


27/4/2005
firstly, congrats to MI bball team..boys..for winning the competition against ACJC..yeah!!! haha..and congrats to MI bball team..girls..for winning against pioneer jc..haha...and congrats to MI for being the only jc/ci tat won the honour award for don't know wat stuff lar..haha...all the best!! keep up the good work..sure can beat sajc bball boys..last round i think..ahha..jia you!!

got caught for my hair again...got to dye it BLACK again..how many times must they catch me for it? haha..."your hair color brown has becoming more and more obvious...do get it dyed back to black if you wish or are serious about internship...i give u until monday to do so..can?" haha...again..by mrs wong..haiz..so sad to have her as SC teacher and my home tutor..haha..

Mr Azlan chat with me outside teacher's pe room..haha...he said about my hair..then i told him wat mrs wong said..and he told me that last time he used to dyed his hair ORANGE!!! haha..with a tail black in color behind too..haha..so ugly..tats wat i told him..then he said, "if you think tat is ugly, i think tat it is nice..juz as you think tat your hair is nice, other teachers might think otherwise..haha"..he is so understanding..ahha..and so nice..haha..he and mr haikal looks like those flirty kind..bt actually married with kids..haha!

juz found out that Mr Ng the VP is from service 3..oh no!! imagine bumping into him during saturday..haha...then he will be like, "you are from this church?" haha...someone saw my om card from my wallet..i wonder how that person saw it...great eye power..then tell her friend..and we talked...her name is joyce..from service 5..haha...so many ppl from city harvest in MI!!! already 3 from toh tuck side tat i saw in service the other day..haha...and i know 3 from bartley..imagine the seniors..haha..wow!! revival...soon!!! yeah..


today..i went for internship...played silly games..some butt shifting game..then u got to play scissors paper stone thingy...then i won until the end already..haha..halfway my butt hurts...haha..then i was like, "OUCH!!! MY BUTT HURTS!!!" haha...so fun!! Tessa is my mentor..haha..she is fun to be with...

wow..super tired...tomorrow still have got pe..bt mr haikal say tat pe will be different from normal..tat means no tough training..haha..the other day carry medicine ball and ran around..like army siah..haha..bt 2morrow one will be a lecture..bt i wonder how..haha!!!


someone told me that i seems to be different from wat i am a month ago..more positive...sort of something different..yup..last month...things ain't going right..bt now, i'm trusting in God for breakthrough...keeping my faith in Him..hee...praise the Lord for today..haha...



HOW MANY TIMES, HAVE I BROKEN YOUR HEART, STILL YOU FORGIVE ME, IF ONLY I ASK...HOW MANY TIMES, HAVE YOU HEARD ME PRAY..DRAW NEAR TO ME....