Juz finished with the proposal for the internship thingy..2morrow is the heats for sports day...i'm planning not to go, though mr haikal say tat we must go..haha..2morrow is the pos thingy...will be going for it...haha..i saw the various cluster practice the other day..hmm...and i heard from one of the member of the jc cluster tat the east cluster for the sec sch practice everyday...as in their flyer..last time..now stop coz of exams or something..i wonder if its true or not..haha..imagine..asking me to practice everyday "flying"..haha...maybe i'll be the backup flyer or something..haha..coz i share my base with another girl..ahah...and she is better than i do..haha..i can only stand and one stun..tats it..coz we didn't practice tat much..bt anyway, doesn't matter though..haha..wat matters is the team spirit..hee..coming together as one...and i still can't believe tat Perez said tat i wasn't stepping on his hand when i've..haha...maybe i'm light..*opps*..haha..so bhb..so tired..haha..and u know wt, i juz discover tat this month going to be so straining for me..coz i'll have 3 test...2 history test..land on phil pringle week..bt i'll try and fight for my breakthrough to go..hah..can one..in Jesus' name..and GP exam..its a exam...not a test..haha..btw, my promotional exam coming pretty soon!! argh!! super stressed...already got so many things to do..bt my God is my strength..hee...praise the Lord for it...


why do people feel strange in a way or another, or feel weird when they have not seen the person tat they like for about 2 days? so funny...all of them kept telling me tat..."hey, i feel so strange..so long never see him/her.."...then i ask how long haven't they seen each other..and some only 1 day..haiz..haha..then i ask why, then they gave lame answers..haha! imagine..hmm..is this really love? haha..then i ask them, wat is love..then all go silent..or change topic..haha..still none of my friends can tell me wat is love...i didn't ask every single person tat i know lar..haha....why am i saying this? hmm..i do not know..sort of miss so many ppl in my life...really..i miss quite a lot of ppl..been thinking about them lately...imagine..i haven't seen them for so long..so for years..some for months...some for weeks..some for days...haha..days? haha...


I can't live without you, I can't breathe without you, I dream about you, honestly tell me that its over!!

wats wrong with me nowadays huh? haha...giving out too much of love huh? hahah...my tears are turning into time...no reason to say goodbye...honestly tell me tat its over....

First Love
saigo no kisu wa
tabako no flavor ga shita
nigakute setsunai kaori

ashita no imagoro ni wa
anata wa doko ni iru n' darou
dare wo omotte 'ru n' darou

you are always gonna be my love
itsu ka dare ka to mata koi ni ochite mo
i'll remember to hold on
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
ima wa mada kanashii love song
atarashii uta utaeru made

tachidomaru jikan ga
ugoki-dasou to shite 'ru
wasuretaku nai koto bakari

ashita no imagoro ni wa
watashi wa kitto naite 'ru
anata wo omotte 'ru n' darou

you will always be inside my heart
itsu mo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
i hope that i have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
ima wa mada kanashii love song
atarashii uta utaeru made

you are always gonna be my love
itsu ka dare ka to mata koi ni ochite mo
i'll remember to hold on
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
mada kanashii love song
now and forever..

english translation:

the last kiss
tasted like tobacco
a bitter and sad smell

tomorrow, at this time
where will you be?
who will you be thinking about?

you are always gonna be my love
even if i fall in love with someone once again
i'll remember to hold on
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until i can sing a new song

the paused time is
about to start moving
there's many things that i don't want to forget about

tomorrow, at this time
i will probably be crying
i will probably be thinking about you

you will always be inside my heart
you will always have your own place
i hope that i have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
it's still a sad song
until i can sing a new song

you are always gonna be my love
even if i fall in love with someone once again
i'll remember to hold on
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
now and forever...



i used to share this song in a letter..tat i wrote for shar..haha..well, i really really really really like this song a lot...though i don't know the meaning of the song in the first place..and the translation is not really tat good also..haha..bt well, its really nice..it says a lot about love in a way...you know wat, this few days i've been looking at the people around me...and there is a compassion for them..esp those tat are different from others in a way or another..even in the bus..though i don't know tat person...there is this lady in the bus, and she has some sort of difficulty in her walking..so i prayed in my heart..tat God would bless her...and other cases also..well..compassion for the lost..it is something tat believer should have..or should carry...is this wat i've been praying for? or God moving in my life? well, for His thoughts are higher than my thoughts..so i shall trust in the Lord..and i'm really really believing for revival in my school...


J for Jesus, C for Christ...JC JC blah blah blah..haha..i forget..bt its nice ain't it? hahah..JC!!! REVIVIAL!!! JESUS CHRIST in our JUNIOR COLLEGE...though mine is centralised institute..bt sama sama..haha....


btw, i won't be online this few days..esp in the afternoon or if you didn't see me online, don't hestitate to msg me or to call me if you've got anything to ask me, to talk to me, need a listening ear...need a helping hand...you name it...if there's something you need me to help you with, give me a call, or msg me..i'll try my best..don't worry...rain or shine..be there...hee! God bless all of you ppl..and to those who are gonna have their exams soon, will be praying for you..hee! take care!!

Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry
Have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right
Have you ever
Have you ever
Have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything
To make them understand
Have you ever had someone
Steal your heart away
You'd give anything, oh
To make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start


Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry
Have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right
Have you ever
Have you ever
Oh

Have you ever found the one
You dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything
To look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one
You've given your heart to
Only to find that one
Won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait
For the day when they will care


Have you ever loved sombody
(So much)
So much
(Makes you cry)
Makes you wanna break down and cry
(Somethin' so bad)
So, so bad
(Sleep at night)
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't
(Come out right)
Oh, have you ever
Have you ever, ever, ever

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms, baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand
How I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
Cause baby, I can't sleep


Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry
Have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night
Have you (have you, have you ever needed) ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever

Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry
Have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right
Have you ever
Have you ever, ever, ever
Oh, have you ever