this pic is very nice...i like it a lot..bt those who don't like anime, i know you wouldn't like it..bt well, enjoy!! haha...its very nice...haha...i love hug!!


Ok..its been quite a few days since i've last updated...so i'll update it day by day..haha...and probably some extra stuff or something..hee!

29th of April:
went to my cca for the first time...btw, i've decided not to join modern dance..though Eleazar, Hidayah they all still joining..haha...reason, i shall not tell you..btw, i was quite "shy" to go for my cca, so i asked Intan to bring me..haha...btw, during their break while practising, i went to play their guitar...juz something to jam..haha..can't stand watching but not playing or creating a tune or something..haha..then tat coach, btw, he is an african american..and he is friendly..haha..and he asked me to be his guitarist..haha...so i said ok...and we are gonna play the song "carwash"..the one in shark's tale one..haha...then went for cg...then we had "practical"..then i was reminded of the time where i had to pray for Cedric..as in lay hands on him..then he was super tall..haha...tats another story..bt yar..haha...

30th of April:
went to do my hair black AGAIN..haha...then went for the bazaar thingy...meet up with Rachie first..we went to mccafe..and well, i breathe in 2nd hand smoke..you know wat i mean..haha..why do most of those tat i'm quite close with always let me breathe in 2nd hand smoke? haha..bt anyway, she's a nice gal..haha..then we took Yi Chuang dad's lorry to the place..bt we go round and round orchard area juz to find tat place..then blah blah blah...i dont even bother to change into my MI tees..haha..so i wore home clothes..even Mr Raj didn't say anything..haha...then blah blah blah...i'm the "bargain girl"..any ppl wants to bargain for our goods, bargain with me..ahha! and i'm not easy to bargain with..so we earn quite a lot..until i started to rest...coz my body can't take it..i rest at around 8 pluz 9...then do hanna...haha...and i bought something..bt all the things tat i buy is not for me..only for one exercise book tat is designed..haha...bt praise the Lord for everything..then Rachie was sick...so i ran and buy panadol for her..and she got better and she msged me after i got home saying how touch she was..haha..coz i kept asking her how is she..bt well, it was quite chaotic lar..haha...so got home quite late..around 12 pluz going to one..haha....then blah blah blah....btw, i still find tat Vila is very poor thing..our leader..and no one seems to listen to her..till i asked them to do..hahah..well, those of you tat knows, you know why..haha..oh well..individually one only earn 20 pluz..so little..haha...

1st of May:
Labour day!! woke up not feeling at all tired..coz i prayed the night before for strength..and i went for service with such great expectacy in my heart..and sitting beside me, was 3 guy..all from australia..bt they are studying in singapore..2 of them first time here...so the one sitting beside me, i asked him..haha...then he is quite cute lar..16 years old..hmm...Adam..btw, his surname remind me of someone..bt thats another story lar..haha..then service...during the Word..wanted to share my bible with him..bt he dont want..so blah blah blah..then during the Word, i felt the strong presence of God..and my eyes was teary..coz the presence of God was very strong...and during the prayer thingy, though not praying for my age group, i experience the presence of God..and i felt Him strengthening me...and wow!!! so great is He!!! hee...God is so awesome..bt during the prayer thingy, my contact lens dropped twice..haha....so blah blah blah..bought a cd...then went out to study with mich and jas...then went out with aunty lacey and sean they all to changi airport to celebrate sean's bday...haha...great food...then i got blessings too...bt on my way home, something terrible happen to me..mum was juz talking on the phone..and suddenly, juz so suddenly, i can't breathe..so i took a deep breathe in, bt still, it got worst..and basically, there came a point in time where i stop breathing...and i kept telling myself to breathe...and i was basically grasping for air..it was so terrible...i didn't bring my medicine..and mum juz doesn't seem to care...until we got down the bus at our house bus stop and i nearly fainted...oh well...bt can't go to the doc though..every night i am basically grasping for air...in the morning, shortness of breathe..hmm...God, i trust in You for healing....praise the Lord for everything..though i've this in me, bt i thank God tat i'm still alive..for all the other things tat He has given to me..

2nd of May:
wanted to go out and study alone..in starbucks..bt well, pos ppl call yesterday..so i went for the pos thing today...at city hall..then i saw pei zhen..asked her to help us by teaching us some of the dance steps..bt she is busy..haha..so well, bt great to see her again...then saw wei siong and ian..they are practising also...haha..the practice at first was quite slack one..haha..till we went outside...and you know wat, i'm a flyer...as in for cheerleading thingy...being thrown up and stuff..coz i'm light..and that Perez who is the one holding one of my leg, said tat i'm so light tat i'm not stepping at him at all..haha..yeah..i'm the second lightest among the flyer..haha..yeah!! bt well, i tried many times, bt finally we managed to do one of the stun..coz we didn't really practice that much..ahha...and i'm used to stepping on the shoulder rather than on someone hand..and i kept saying sorry that they said tat if i said some more sorry, i would have to blanja them..haha...then we went to long john silver to eat, then well, praise the Lord, Jing blanja me to a meal!! juz when i wasn't planning to eat coz i wanted to save money!! bt well, praise the Lord!! He is so awesome...not too early, not too late, juz the right time!! God is great...haha..so is Jing..haha..she's a flyer also..haha..FLY AWAY~~~ aha..




ok..this few days, ppl have been trying to "protect" me in a way..they've been saying things like. ".......all that i can do, is to protect you or look after you in a way or another." thats wat most of them said..am i really tat vulnerable? tat some ppl have been saying tat, or similar things like tat? the reason why he said tat to me is coz he is far away..bt how about them? i wonder why...


one thing tat i found out, that many ppl left when i'm not around, or worst still, when i'm around..i do not know why, bt ppl juz seems to be leaving my side...

for wat reason i do not know, bt she has been giving me the cold shoulder..haha..maybe she's mad at me..

a formal party..and a really formal one...at fullerton hotel i think...hmm...they are so rich..got to wear super duper formal..haha...


Jesus, dont pass me by...


PACKING UP THE DREAMS GOD PLANTED
IN THE FUTILE SOIL OF YOU
CAN'T BELIEVE THE HOPES HE'S GRANTED
MEANS A CHAPTER IN YOUR LIFE IS THROUGH
BUT WE'LL KEEP YOU CLOSE AS ALWAYS
IT WON'T EVEN SEEM YOU'VE GONE
CAUSE OUR HEARTS IN BIG AND SMALL WAYS
WILL KEEP THE LOVE THAT KEEPS US STRONG

AND FRIENDS ARE FRIENDS FOREVER
IF THE LORD IS THE LORD OF THEM
AND A FRIENDS WILL NOT SAY NEVER
CAUSE THE WELCOME WILL NOT END
THOUGH IT'S HARD TO LET YOU GO
IN THE FATHER'S HANDS WE KNOW
THAT A LIFETIME'S NOT TOO LONG
TO LIVE AS FRIENDS

WITH THE FAITH AND LOVE GOD'S GIVEN
SPRINGING FROM THE HOPE WE KNOW
WE WILL PRAY THE JOY YOU'LL LIVE IN
IS THE STRENGTH THAT NOW YOU SHOW
BUT WE'LL KEEP YOU CLOSE AS ALWAYS
IT WON'T EVER SEEM YOU'VE GONE
CAUSE OUR HEARTS IN BIG AND SMALL WAYS
WILL KEEP THE LOVE THAT KEEPS US STRONG

dont worry, though you seem to be gone,still...you and i....will be FRIENDS FOREVER....loving you with the love of Christ..