DrEaMs?
Alright, yesterday, my post of my wishlist was some kind of crap..haha..actually, not really..ahaha..
anyway, i've so much to blog..but i wonder i can remember...
well, farewell to the 3 girls..i call them charlie angels...and well, they left MI today for somewhere where they belong...and this really in a way, makes me wonder about many stuff. Firstly, what am i doing in MI now? there are many dreams that i really would like to pursue, but it seems like, i'm super duper far away, with the current situation that i'm in right now...which is, my reality. you know what, last time, i used to convince myself that this is a good way for me to go, or the route that i'm taking, which is studying in MI...but recently, i've done some soul-searching. and i've found that this, no 1, i was "cheated" of coming into this school...last time my teacher said that if you want to be a social worker, you have to have an A level cert, which right now, the criteria have changed. Oh well. no 2, this is NOT my dream, it is my dad's dream for me. he wanted me to go into the university and such. whatever, this reminds me of a story. the man obeyed his father all the while in his life, until there comes a day, when he stepped out, and said that he wants to go his way, which is really what he want to do in life. will i have the courage to do so? to step out and talk to my dad about it? probably, my dad will chase after me with a knife, demanding that i complete the 3 year course...but will i be afraid to say it out just because i'm afraid of this? i'm not too sure about it, and my mum was not really very supportive of this idea of mine, to withdraw from MI..coz once you withdraw, you can't go back. what to do?
this few days, i've been too "generous" with my money. people come to me and "act" as though they are very poor, and so, i tried to help. and not once, not twice, but more than that, i've been conned. cheated into lending them money, when they haven't got the intention to pay back. i felt cheated, it seems so gullible of me to believe them.
distress...that is what i'm feeling right now...promos coming nearer, my heart jumping faster...
anyway, i've so much to blog..but i wonder i can remember...
well, farewell to the 3 girls..i call them charlie angels...and well, they left MI today for somewhere where they belong...and this really in a way, makes me wonder about many stuff. Firstly, what am i doing in MI now? there are many dreams that i really would like to pursue, but it seems like, i'm super duper far away, with the current situation that i'm in right now...which is, my reality. you know what, last time, i used to convince myself that this is a good way for me to go, or the route that i'm taking, which is studying in MI...but recently, i've done some soul-searching. and i've found that this, no 1, i was "cheated" of coming into this school...last time my teacher said that if you want to be a social worker, you have to have an A level cert, which right now, the criteria have changed. Oh well. no 2, this is NOT my dream, it is my dad's dream for me. he wanted me to go into the university and such. whatever, this reminds me of a story. the man obeyed his father all the while in his life, until there comes a day, when he stepped out, and said that he wants to go his way, which is really what he want to do in life. will i have the courage to do so? to step out and talk to my dad about it? probably, my dad will chase after me with a knife, demanding that i complete the 3 year course...but will i be afraid to say it out just because i'm afraid of this? i'm not too sure about it, and my mum was not really very supportive of this idea of mine, to withdraw from MI..coz once you withdraw, you can't go back. what to do?
this few days, i've been too "generous" with my money. people come to me and "act" as though they are very poor, and so, i tried to help. and not once, not twice, but more than that, i've been conned. cheated into lending them money, when they haven't got the intention to pay back. i felt cheated, it seems so gullible of me to believe them.
distress...that is what i'm feeling right now...promos coming nearer, my heart jumping faster...
posted by Abigail @ Friday, September 16, 2005
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