Hmm...well, excluding today, there will be about 10 more days to my GP exams...it is not test or whatever, it is my promotional exams. i've got to clear it. 1 A and 2 AO...that is the criteria...will i be able to make it? it depends on my effort and such.

Yesterday and on saturday night, was sort of so terrible for me. felt like releasing my emotions but it juz wont come out. not even when i'm in the toilet, alone. in the end, emotional breakdown came. and all i can do is say hi to them. urgh. yesterday, it was a scenario, full of irony. there are many reasons why i'm saying this. but i'm not naming them here. and dont ask.

I went to make my contact lens yesterday. i make the new one. which is the Acuvue Hydraclear or something. the one which allows oxygen to pass through it. and well, praise the Lord, my degree has went down by 75. wow! but sadly, my astimatism remains the same for my left eye. urgh. and thank God my mum allows me to buy this brand of contact, though my previous brand is not this brand, and this is double the cost of my previous one.

I wrote a letter to my teacher, for not doing my essay homework. and this is the first time that i've wrote a letter to my teacher for not doing my work. and i've got reasons for it, because i can't concentrate coz of some stuff.

Today, i can see the scrutiny in her eyes. she is trying to look at me, and judge me. i shall not be bothered by it, because all she ever cares about is how people look at her and such. and well, if she is gonna place a death sentence for her judgement on me, then well, i guess she is juz being too naive. because i'm not in my normal self, i ain't thinking, ain't concentrating, deep in my thoughts, i may be physically there, but not there mentally, emotionally and such. the guillibility of humans.

I shall stop here for now. btw, i've found my Econs TYS. and you know what, i went to buy one yesterday, stupid monkey, take my book and don't know that it is my book. urgh, waste my $12.