Ok, yesterday night, when i reached home, mum suddenly came to me, and wanna talk to me about my "future". so she said this, "since you've told me how you really dislike MI, i've found a solution for you." so wow! i was like, so excited, probably, probably...she is gonna send me to design school, or NAFA or whatever. things that i seriously want to do, rather than where i am right now. then....should i say, its a good news, bad news or wat? i seriously dont know. she has found a "route" for me to choose, or in this context, to go or worst still, to obey. she wants me to go to australia to study...1 year there to study in college, then straight 2 years for university and come back here with a degree or whatever. she said that compared that to what i'm going through, i need 2 more years to complete my college, about 2 or 3 more years of university, so might as well go there. and she is gonna call Lynn and asked her about it. at first, i thought...she's kidding..bt it doesn't seem so. and she SUDDENLY came to me and told me this. i wonder why.

i've got 3 choices right now:
1) go to australia and come back 3 years later with a degree
2) stay in singapore and continue my education in MI
3) go to NAFA or any other design related course


dont ask me what i'm feeling right now. doubts upon doubts. questions upon questions. wondering about so many stuff. wondering what will my mum's decision be, wonder what my decision will be, wondering about if i could get through promos. and wondering...and wondering...coming into realization, and slowly, into REALITY. welcome back, Jia Li. may your stay here be pleasant. wish you well.

these people know my name, and they thought they know everything about me. but in actual fact, they knew nothing at all. Forget about what they say, and get away tonight.