HELP.HELP.HELP.HELP.HELP.HELP.HELP.HELP.HELP.HELP.
HELP.HELP.HELP.HELP.HELP.HELP.HELP.HELP.HELP.HELP.

Im drowning. drowning.


whats the point of it all? she would be better off without us. i dont want to see her in pain, just because of us. we are nothing but leeches to her. i want her to be happy, not sad. i want her to pursue what she wants to do, not do what she have to do and hanging on to us as a burden.


i've helped to pull someone up,
but i'm pulled down.

i've let go of someone,
and now i've let loose of myself.

i've encouraged people,
but i can't seem to do so for myself.

i've motivated and inspired others,
but these words can't seem to work for me.

why,
why is everything going against the natural?

they asked for a second chance,
i gave.
now i'm asking for one,
i get none.

i lend a crying shoulder, a helping hand,
now i get none.

now i'm drowning, in my own tears.
i became someone's emotional baggage,
and now i'm filled to the brim.

nowhere to go, no one to turn to,
help.

God, where are You?
Do i still believe in You?
Am i still clinging on to You, or have i let go of You?

Persecutions upon persecutions,
trials upon trials,
pains upon pains.
is it really time?

I'm dying....dying soon...
Probably no one cares.
When that happens, how many will turn up,
At my funeral one day?

He just throws his emotional baggage at us.
I'm so heavily burden.
So...lost.
Where should i go?
What should i do?
Who should i turn to?
When should i let go?
How should i handle all these?

New environment may helps.
That's what others think.
It doesn't work on me.
The other time, i tried.
It failed.
Big time.

Love. God is love.
Love covers all sins.
Everyone is so busy with their own life.
No time to love one another.
No time to care for one another.
I felt like as though...
Do i really believe in it anymore?
Or have i really given up on everything?
Nothing seems to work for me.
I dont know.
Just what is happening.
Dont ask me.

I've helped someone out of a pithole,
Now i've dropped into the pithole just next to it.
Its so dark.
I couldn't see.
NO light.
No nothing.
Time seems to pass by so slowly.
Will i be able to get out of this pithole?
Or would i stay here for long?

Time is running out on me.
I've no more time left.



one may appears to be smiling, to be laughing. but never did they realised that deep inside, the pain is extruciating. just now i cried while bathing. i sneaked out of my house to pass Rulan the chords for a song. my heart pound very fast. while waiting, i'm thinking...quick..come quickly...i do not know what is going to happen when my dad found out. i was so........scared. seriously. i sneaked out while he was bathing. do you know that you can feel painful in your heart when u are sad? seriously. i felt it.


please. dont walk out on us. especially not on me. dont walk out on me. so many people that i've loved have walked out on me. please don't. i know you wont. but please, dont even think about it. the other time, we are so closed. just a paper and we are going seperate ways. please. no.