I'm not dwelling on the past, people who has read my previous post would say that i am. i'm not.


Love. Is there really such a love, that one gives up everything just to be or to love that someone? yes, i know. Jesus has done that. He loved us so much that He died on the cross. God loved us so much that He send His only begotten Son. but, i'm talking about love. as in between one another. She gave up everything to be with him. she forsaken her family, her colleagues and all...and even her future, just so that she can be with him. wow. i was amazed. it's a true story. i ain't making this up. i was in tears when i heard it. this kind of love. wow.


I used to ask him, how do i get or persue the freedom that i really really longed to have. that one day, i dont have to do what my parents want me to do, i can do what i really and trully want to do, and persue my dreams, not other people's expectations of me. i used to run away, thinking it would help, but it didn't. i used to do so many things, rebelled and such, so that one day i would find that place of freedom. but you know wat he told me, he said, "there ain't such a place on earth." i was in a way, upset to hear that. but later on, he said that freedom comes when you decide for your own life, doing things that you want to do, having the love, the boldness the courage and the faith to believe in things or people that matter the most to you. he taught me this. no one is perfect in this world. so i'm not. i'm still finding, finding for my freedom, but i know, to no avail, unless i am willing, to step out, and do what i really want to do, and not be where i am right now. too bad i can no longer see him, or probably, we will not be able to see each other again. friends like this are hard to get. or you would say, someone you loved.


people said that when you fall in love when you are very young, around sec 1 or sec 2, that is not love at all. it is just puppy love. well, i dont quite agree to that. seriously. everyone is born in this world with the capacity to love others, some have plenty, while some have little. how do u know what kind of love that is, unless you are the person?




hmm...i realised that what i've blogged right now is all about love. dont misunderstood me. i'm not in a relationship right now or whatever. its just memories and such. so dont come running to me and ask me questions whether i'm in a relationship or not. i'm not. and love does not necessary means a boy-girl relationship. it can be with family, friends etc.