Today...hmm...was nearly late though. but wasn't. and today i've my first history paper 1 lesson with Mrs Joy Tan. i wonder. really. i can't stand her, she's making me feel so tense. i, mandy, salmiah and vila are in the same group to do the history work. then she was sitting beside me and salmiah listening and watching us do the stuff. we felt so tense and all. and seriously, i dont like her coz she was the one who caught me the first day i return back to school after the surgery thingy mc. she caught me for not buying the school uniform. how lame. think she can still remember up till now. anyway, history is a subject that i can do research on and such and still can do well for it. so yar.

Literature paper 1 teacher. wow. haha...nothing much to say about her, just that well...i miss Mdm Yani. she's on mc. hoping that she will get well soon after her operation.

Anyway, today some company came to my school and give us talk about some learning style thingy. and you know wat, i've learnt that since i was in sec 1. and so i answer their questions and they gave me this highlighter that works on both side. one side is yellow, the other is pink.

After school, i was in the gym. then i talked to Hui Min. She's from KC. and i asked her wat subject she took. she is taking the same as me except that she is taking geog instead. and Mr benny say i disturb her. haha...coz they learning MI dance just now..haha..


Yesterday, i was on the verge to tears. and mum and sis keep on "irritate" me in a way. i choose not to talk to them, or say anything else. seriously. i'm having so many things running in my mind. and i really feel that probably, i'll breakdown soon. all these. oh my. and u know what, i was just looking through my drawer, that is by my bedside in a way, and i saw a letter. i actually ignored it. but well, i just felt the urge to take the paper out and read the content. and so i did. i felt so much better after that. bt when i went to bed, i cried. coz i can't take it anymore. i've been crying before i go to bed for about 2 to 3 days now i guess.


Its not easy to be me.


I've just watched the show Kingdom of Heaven. Hidayah lend it to me. and so i sit in front of my com for 2 hrs to finish the show. the show is about lots of themes and such but they kept mentioning about God. my comment? it makes me even U__________ than to B_____. I really need to do something. but i tried. but i can't. seriously. whats wrong with me?