Went shopping today. I went to Heeren today, but she didn't turned up. So i went to bugis to meet mum. then we went to city link after that. bought some clothes and all. total, i spend on new year clothes is about $400. hmm. not much though. for 2 bottoms, 2 tops and one pair of shoes(which i bought in dec). hmm. while i was alone thinking, many things came into my mind. i'm wondering, why do people behave the way they behaved? and why am i always the victim of things? and why do i just can't get up on my feet again? everytime i did that, something would push me...or even push me down. i would rather something push me till my back is to the wall, then when i'm pushed down a pithole. pithole is harder to climb out. i wonder. really wonder.


i'm not good with presentation. i would forget everything that i really have planned to say. but in the end, i'll freak out. thats why, i shouldnt be an actress,singer or even host.