What should i say? Reunion dinner was kind of sucky for me. In a way, it seems like a normal dinner for me after all..



I'm so not looking forward to chinese new year. Only looking forward towards the receiving of red packet. how money-minded can i get? hmm..




This year, many things will change for me for chinese new year. She's gone. Now i'm left here, wondering about so many things. She's like a part and parcel of my life, but now, she's gone. I hope that she will be there, there 2mrrow as usual, but i know, that is so not going to happen. What will 2morrow be like? i'm so not looking forward to it.



I pray that i would be happy for the next 2-3 days, just for this season. Everybody seems to be so excited, so pumped up for the season. but it is not so for me though. All im thinking right now, is to get over this. I couldn't even do my lit homework, my mind is in a mess. Just now, i nearly blew during the dinner, but thank God i didn't. just what is wrong with me? she told me to just control, and be "happy". but i know, this can't happen, can it?


Pessimism kills.



I'm sure, my relatives majority of them are stingy.