I'm feeling very pathetic right now.

Just now, after strikeforce, i bought food back home to eat. Guess what it is? Macdonald double cheese burger. YUCK! but i've got no choice. I've to save money. It is not even building fund. And i'm feeling so pathetic.

Before that, i went for strikeforce. Actually, i dont really want to go today. But i went thinking that i'm involved in NDP and thus must learn the stuff and all. but well, i'm not in it. Cause before that, i was planning to go to grandma's birthday party. well, she's pretty sick right now, on tubes and all. i really really want to pay her a visit. well, i regretted going for strikeforce and not her birthday. and throughout the whole practice of the space jam song, i wasn't paying attention, but i managed to learn the rhythm the moment i hear them play, so my mind wonder elsewhere. especially thinking about my grandma.


I was reminded of my aunt just now. I remembered that time i went to visit her at the hospital. the very words that she spoke to me about my studies.



Improvements i want to see in my life for the next 3 months: 1) My studies..i dont wanna disappoint my aunt. I dont wanna disappoint myself!