Tomorrow is my birthday. Well, over the past few days, i haven't been happy. In case you are wondering how can that be, when i'm telling my usual jokes and all. Yeah, its true. You didn't read wrongly or something. I haven't been happy for the past few days. Tried to be, but can't. I prayed and all, the joy of the Lord is my strength. I thank God for His strength, but every night, i've been crying, wondering when can i get out of this..its all in my mind. I believe i can overcome this? Yeah. Exams started today. Sort of like my battlefield. Firstly, i have to fight the battle of my sadness, then i've to fight from fatique then to fight from stress and then to fight from anxiety. So, its true. Life is a battlefield. But i thank God that He is by my side. Whenever i cry, i could always feel secure...cause He is by my side.

I think that the phrase "Happy Birthday" seems to get on my nerves this year. haha..i dont know why. Many have sms me in advance cause of various reasons, while others said it in advance for fun and laughter. I'm sorta tired of it. Yeah, i know it means that people cares and all. But i really hope tomorrow i will have a breakthrough. That as it is my birthday tomorrow, i really hope that tomorrow is the day that i will truly be happy...no more tears, sadness etc. I dont really care about wishlist and all...even if i've got it or not, it still doesnt make me happy. My mum fulfilled my wishlist of a bass amp and drumsticks, but still, i'm not happy. Watching funny stuff and listening to jokes make me laugh, but after which, its the same.