Reheasal was yesterday. It seems like i'm climbing mount everest. but obviously, its not. Sitting at the top of the piers, they started singing the song Rain Down.

"Give me strength to cross this water, keep my feet don't let me falter...rain down..."

while they are singing this, i change the lyrics in my own mind to this:

"Give me strength for this reheasal, keep my knees dont let there be bruises..." ~haha...though it may seemed funny, that is really what i pray for. serious. then as for the rain down part, yes, God, can rain down your anointing, your creativity, your strength on us. But dont rain down literally. no shelter....God is always good.

Tired, but willing. Painful, but worth the pain.

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Something happen today. It really makes me wonder. How many people actually love me, actually bother about what is really going on in my life? or the things that i experienced? the only person that i know of, is my mum and of course, God. He will never leave me nor forsake me.

What about the rest? Even those close to me? Are they loving me in a way that i can't feel it, or are they pretending? Or worst, are they making use of me, be it financially or for some other purposes? So full of doubt.


I'm so ___________.

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Within 2 days, i saw 5 people that i used to reach out and have rejected me. well, maybe God is telling me to try again? hee...Can you hear the sound? the sound of people crying? crying to know the One, who gives His all, who gives His one and only begotten Son? How important is reaching out to you?